liss mote liss mote liss mote liss mote liss mote (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} ghostparty) wrote,@ 2008-02-02 08:16:00 |
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heartbreak is weird world
isn't it funny when you wake up and realize you've been totally nuts for the past week but you still don't even really feel that much better, just aware. everything in my body is screwed up, i have no appetite and i'm trying to quit smoking and i still throw up a lot. i have the best plan to quit smoking which is only smoke sobranie cocktail cigarettes because they are a. really embarrassing b. really gay c. so beautiful that i never want to smoke them to preserve the beautiful rainbow order.
yesterday in drawing this boy asked me what my drawing was so i went from the top and described everything, well here are two girls and then a big dick with three balls going into the tiniest rainbow vagina, and then there's these monsters coming off of it, and they are eating two weird witches, and the witches are vomiting, etc. he thought about it for awhile and then he say well, the way i see it, there is a good and evil vagina here. the tiny colorful vagina is inherently good and the big black vagina is evil. this was pretty much awesome. part of me wants to show you what i am drawing now but then again it is just the stupid internet.
today is going to be a rule day. i am awake at 8 am and my mom and sister will be here by the time it gets dark. that's good because i can handle the sunshine just fine it is the dark that gets me sad. this is what i'm going to do today:
-go to studio
-totally reorganize the way i paint, i want order and precision and plan and less mess. i'm going to think about it like my drawings but not so much that i am hindered by it. i got some graphite paint and i am ~stoked~
-read a lot
-think a lot
-feel good a lot
-try not to think about summer and floating in water too much
-find out what my sister wants to eat for breakfast tomorrow and obtain proper ingredients
-eat yummy fancy dinner with my mom and sister
-corrupt my little sister to an extent that is appropriate for age seventeen, actually i don't know anything about what's appropriate for age seventeen considering our former lifestylessss
-try to be nice to my sister, remember that she takes everything i say literally so my usual jokes don't go over very well
-go to warm sleep in my own bed because i am safe and warm and i have to remember that
isn't it funny when you wake up and realize you've been totally nuts for the past week but you still don't even really feel that much better, just aware. everything in my body is screwed up, i have no appetite and i'm trying to quit smoking and i still throw up a lot. i have the best plan to quit smoking which is only smoke sobranie cocktail cigarettes because they are a. really embarrassing b. really gay c. so beautiful that i never want to smoke them to preserve the beautiful rainbow order.
yesterday in drawing this boy asked me what my drawing was so i went from the top and described everything, well here are two girls and then a big dick with three balls going into the tiniest rainbow vagina, and then there's these monsters coming off of it, and they are eating two weird witches, and the witches are vomiting, etc. he thought about it for awhile and then he say well, the way i see it, there is a good and evil vagina here. the tiny colorful vagina is inherently good and the big black vagina is evil. this was pretty much awesome. part of me wants to show you what i am drawing now but then again it is just the stupid internet.
today is going to be a rule day. i am awake at 8 am and my mom and sister will be here by the time it gets dark. that's good because i can handle the sunshine just fine it is the dark that gets me sad. this is what i'm going to do today:
-go to studio
-totally reorganize the way i paint, i want order and precision and plan and less mess. i'm going to think about it like my drawings but not so much that i am hindered by it. i got some graphite paint and i am ~stoked~
-read a lot
-think a lot
-feel good a lot
-try not to think about summer and floating in water too much
-find out what my sister wants to eat for breakfast tomorrow and obtain proper ingredients
-eat yummy fancy dinner with my mom and sister
-corrupt my little sister to an extent that is appropriate for age seventeen, actually i don't know anything about what's appropriate for age seventeen considering our former lifestylessss
-try to be nice to my sister, remember that she takes everything i say literally so my usual jokes don't go over very well
-go to warm sleep in my own bed because i am safe and warm and i have to remember that
