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Saturday, March 21st, 2009
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10:02 am
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dohhhh dearinternet i am in aterrible moodr ightnow because i got my tonsils out last week and i still cant eatandi am so hungry i just want a pizza. i finally felt better after six days in bed so i wnt to mcdonalds and triedto eat a cheeseeburger and i couldnt swallow it and itwas a very patheetic experience. i felt likean escaped nursing homepatient. and no one willcome over and watch movies with me. and my roommate is outof town and i just want her to come back i thought she was comingb ack yesterday and i was so excited but then she said she was coming back this morningbutthen i woke up and she texted me to tell me she's not even coming back untiltomorrow i cant really stand being herealone anyorethere is only so much staring outthewindowi can do. and this boy i brok eup with keeps texting me inm the middle of thenight because he thinks i am thatkind of girl. even if i was that kind of girl sorry i cant suck your dick because im an invalid and i cant even SWALLOW IM IN A BAD MOOOD im lonely and really hungry GOD
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| Friday, February 20th, 2009
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11:31 am
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| Monday, December 8th, 2008
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2:22 pm - i am on a roll
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third time i fell down:
i slipped in a giant puddle of beer and landed on my ass. a cute boy helped me up and we proceeded to ~flirt~ for several minutes until i mentioned my therapist wears a fucking eyepatch at which point he got totally freaked out and suggested we ~dance~ weed em out weed em out
current mood: so happy and gay
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| Friday, December 5th, 2008
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7:20 pm
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times i fell down since yesterday:
-on the stairs, i landed on my butt and the bag of cat shit i was carrying landed in my mom's horrific fake garland
-walking down guadalupe, telling my sister how my latest boytoy turned out to be creep of the earth, i fell flat on my face and my red shoes went flying. my sister wouldn't give them back to me.
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| Tuesday, October 28th, 2008
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10:55 pm - livejournal is only for :( :( :(
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things to think about when you are feeling really bad:
-walking through surprise snowslush with georgia and norel and georgia saying HELL ON EARTH THIS IS JUST HELL ON EARTH
-look at mydeathspace for people who are dead, probably in dumber ways than you will ever die
-cats wearing hats
-max having bleached hair
-max doing anything
-the time i looked in my closet and all i saw was a set of toy guns, a sailor hat, and a vibrator
current mood: worst of the earth
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| Monday, October 13th, 2008
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10:44 am
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life rules, or, a brief list of reasons not to kms:
-my sister is really tall and she has a really short roommate with a british accent
-sometimes my cat sits on my head
-sometimes my mom brings me cheese stick snacks
-tv on the internet
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| Saturday, October 4th, 2008
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10:31 am
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new lifepatterns i am stoked on:
-cloe coming over to watch tv on the internet all the time. law and order svu + house
-having a bestfriends
-nearly naked twister
-doing my math homework at jim's
do:
-go back to new york. finish school because it's pretty important, idiot
-enjoy year of clarity. swim a lot
-draw because this is most important. you are ready
-get over b. again
-enjoy spinsterdom
-write letters to friends who are runnin' round in london and berlin
-go to library a lot
-stop dressing business casual all the time hah ahahhahaha
k bye guys i have a date with my dad!!! cracker barrel + math homework!!!
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| Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008
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1:16 pm
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dear diaryyyy,,,,
how do i feel i don't feel an-y-thing. gettin' m or eand more introverted and there's nothin to do but lay in bed all day with my books and my cable tv. sometimes my roommate jake makes me get out of bed and we sit on the front porch drinkin beer eatin tacos and playin dominoes and goin on adventures to every cantina this side of the highway. jake taxidermies. he taxidermied the bear pillow on our couch. i like jake. yesterday he taught me how to play not only dominoes but also pool. i am not very good at dominoes or pool but this is PROGRESS. it is better than dressing up my cat and getting enormous, unmatched pleasure out of doing my pre-cal homework.
( personal inventory bullshit )
current mood: boring
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| Thursday, August 14th, 2008
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3:43 pm - this livejournal is still about my dad
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i live in austin now which is so scary and awesome!! i don't know what i'm doing! but i am living in a cute house with my cat and chelsea and her cat and jake and his washer and dryer, and my room has green walls, and we have a backyard, and i'm taking a math class this semester, and i'm a secretary and i get to dress up everyday again, and i feel really safe and loved and these are all things i have wanted for a long time. i think it is ok to give stuff up to be happy i guess.
me and my dad drove from texas to new york and back and it ruled. we ate every meal at cracker barrel!! we accidentally missed going to the World's First Cracker Barrel in lebanon, tennessee even though we drove right by it. BUMMER. my dad talks about rocks and trucks and stuff a lot and he is cool.
this is my dad's grocery list:
-cat brush
-cat food
-hot dogs
-beer
-card for dad
-ice cream
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| Sunday, July 20th, 2008
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6:42 pm
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| Friday, May 30th, 2008
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10:23 pm
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well dearrrrrrr diary,
i am 20 years old. what am i supposed to be doing? i am a waitress at the double roses diner. everyday i go to work and then i get off work and i put on my hawaiian print romper and i lay on the balcony and read books. i sleep w ith moderately successful rock stars and then i never see them again and i feel bad about myself. my life is really similar to sandy's on the first season of melrose place, southern waitress selling t&a, but then she got cut. i have good days, i make lemon bars, and i sunbathe, i moonbathe, i do tarot readings for myself, i nap, what am i supposedddd tobe doiiiiinggggg
ohhhh my godddddd
dearrrrrr diarrryyyy i am just being honest
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| Saturday, May 10th, 2008
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5:45 pm
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hey diary,
i turned twenty a few days ago. i still have a babyface. i smoked weed and ate popsicles and layed in the sun. i am not a grown up.
my best birthday present was a bag full of sex toys from calla, who is interning at playgirl. calla is a good friend, we have been having the best adventures. last week the j wasn't running so we just walked over the bridge, and walked and walked and kept walking, and our feet did not even hurt. our friends asked us to get ice cream so we went to food bizarro, my favorite grocery store. food bizarro closes at 11:30. when we got there it was 11:27 but they still would not let us in!! we begged and pleaded and whined, this was especially awkward because we couldn't actually leave, as calla had a hot date meeting her at food bizarro. finally they let us in!! everyone stood in a line and watched us run through the store and they were all yelling GO GO GO GO GO GO GO and laughing so much at us. we got our ice cream!!! then we were walking to will and thomas's house and we went down a weird street i never go down, and a green balloon started to follow us. it was a green balloon with a string that was floating along at exactly human height, not rising or falling. it came towards us, went past, turned in a right angle, went across the street, turned in a right angle again, and followed us back. of course at this point we were running really fast, because that shit was scary. that night had a lot of running.
lots of good nights!!! school's out for summer!!! almost!!!!1 basically all my friends live on leonard st or close-by blocks!!! i wanna play soccer!! yeah go team!!!
here's things to remember now that i am a not-not grownup:
-always be honest, especially to yourself
-glare less
-ask more questions
-watch more dumb movies
-do things you want
-water plants
-no more makin' out, at least until it makes sense
-brain in head, head on shoulders, shoulders back, feet on ground
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| Wednesday, April 30th, 2008
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10:48 am
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i am so exhausted and unhappy and i feel like throwing a fit!!! will i ever be less retarded than i was in high school!!!
-a man in a suit sat down right next to me, poked a hole in a roll with his finger, opened a can of vienna sausages, dumped the entire thing into the hole in the roll, and ate it
-an enormously fat woman sat on top of me on the train i saw her buttcrack descending upon me and there was nothing i could do
-those are the most exciting two things that have happened this week
-some dude just broke up with me and it is so insulting because we were not even really dating!!! you are not allowed to act like you're breakin my heart because you're just not!!!! god!!!! really it jsut makes me angry and i want to kick shit!!!
-as a sweet consolation prize he is setting me up with a good internship with his friend who makes pretty cool drawings
-have to stop kissing all the wrong boys + probably take oath of celibacy
-i am about to turn twenty and i am still so stupid!!!
-i still write in my internet diary!!!
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| Friday, April 11th, 2008
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10:48 am
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hey guys i don't want to jinx it or anything but this has been a pretty great week. good things have come to me in kisses and kittens, namely one tiny black kitty named rat rat toad. he ran up to me last night and this girl gave me food and litter and stuff and this totally rules!! fortunately i had just rented the witches, and now i have a powerful black witch cat to hang out and watch the witches with. i am pretty happy with my lazy slow life of drawing cooking feasts watching tv on the internet and bizarro affairs. soon it is summer and life with doubly ruuuuuleeee k bye dudes
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| Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
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10:45 pm - place of my heart
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du de, texas, pink sunglasses dirty hair no underwear.i went swimming a lot, and ate a lot, and had leisurely lunches, good hugs, and one requisite warm lone star. i love my mommy i love my daddy i love my sister i love abby and cloe and ben and graham and everyone else. i am alright. now i am bored ddudes come over
i am nineteen for a month or so more so i better make the most of my retardation
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| Tuesday, February 19th, 2008
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12:08 am - my life is really important
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-i keep having dreams where i'm about to get married but i forgot who i'm marrying and there's bbq sauce on my dress. what can this mean???
-yesterday i had a panic attack because i can't balance any of the important rainbows of my life which are drawing my stupid rainbows and eating a rainbow assortment. i just can't be in so many places at once.
-the other day we got the elevator stuck for over an hour because we were singing in t he jungle the mighty jungle the lion sleeps tonight and rubbing our butts on t he walls.
-that thing where i am embarrassed about everything i have ever said or done is happening again. god i need to get out of here.
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| Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
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8:16 am - heartbreak is weird world
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isn't it funny when you wake up and realize you've been totally nuts for the past week but you still don't even really feel that much better, just aware. everything in my body is screwed up, i have no appetite and i'm trying to quit smoking and i still throw up a lot. i have the best plan to quit smoking which is only smoke sobranie cocktail cigarettes because they are a. really embarrassing b. really gay c. so beautiful that i never want to smoke them to preserve the beautiful rainbow order.
yesterday in drawing this boy asked me what my drawing was so i went from the top and described everything, well here are two girls and then a big dick with three balls going into the tiniest rainbow vagina, and then there's these monsters coming off of it, and they are eating two weird witches, and the witches are vomiting, etc. he thought about it for awhile and then he say well, the way i see it, there is a good and evil vagina here. the tiny colorful vagina is inherently good and the big black vagina is evil. this was pretty much awesome. part of me wants to show you what i am drawing now but then again it is just the stupid internet.
today is going to be a rule day. i am awake at 8 am and my mom and sister will be here by the time it gets dark. that's good because i can handle the sunshine just fine it is the dark that gets me sad. this is what i'm going to do today:
-go to studio
-totally reorganize the way i paint, i want order and precision and plan and less mess. i'm going to think about it like my drawings but not so much that i am hindered by it. i got some graphite paint and i am ~stoked~
-read a lot
-think a lot
-feel good a lot
-try not to think about summer and floating in water too much
-find out what my sister wants to eat for breakfast tomorrow and obtain proper ingredients
-eat yummy fancy dinner with my mom and sister
-corrupt my little sister to an extent that is appropriate for age seventeen, actually i don't know anything about what's appropriate for age seventeen considering our former lifestylessss
-try to be nice to my sister, remember that she takes everything i say literally so my usual jokes don't go over very well
-go to warm sleep in my own bed because i am safe and warm and i have to remember that
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| Sunday, December 9th, 2007
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6:27 pm - weird world weeeeeird world
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DEAAAAR DIARY,
leading a double life of endless fart jokes brewskies bruises and red lipstick. i have lots of work but am amazingly not stressed out. i am a machine i am a machine or maybe i am just totally nuts and a total masochist. i will be in texas in two weeks and i simply cannot wait. i'd like to see my pals, hang out by some natural bodies of water, even it's too cold to swim, drink endless amounts of coffee, drive around, sleep til' 2, and otherwise do absolutely nothing.
i only write in here when i've been taking insane b vitamins and hallucinating my nights away, whatever. i woke up last night and the movie was still on and i thought it was the sinister recording that was talking to me just playing back over and over and over, and i freake dout, and went back to sleep, and my sheets smell goodooooooodododod oh yes.
love,
liss
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| Friday, October 26th, 2007
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12:03 am - some drawings i have been drawing
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| Sunday, October 21st, 2007
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2:16 am
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okay here is the new thing
stop feeling guilty about livng your life, do what you do feel what you feel draw what you draw, hide out, brain drain, sleep more go to school less, don't drink so much and don't think so much, you will be alright
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